I am having a rough time right now and just want to vent a bit..I am laying in bed at 1am...not able to sleep due to severe pain in my right breast. I am pretty sure I have another infection as I also feel feverish. Gaaah! This has been such a tough week (the toughest since hes been born) and I need a break.
Hes been going through growth spurts where he wants to feed every hour and will get so fussy and just cry (loudly), and seemingly unconsolably. He has also been up a lot at night.
If I had to do it all over again I would def. have a working electric breast pump ready at birth. I haven't gotten more than 4 hr blocks of sleep in over a month (and even those are rare...im lucky if i can get 3). And I am just tanked.
I want to go to Marcelo for support but he is so depleted amd exhausted as well that hes passed out. I tried to wake him to let him know Im sick and just want some tlc but hes so exhausted too.
omg mastitis is the worst pain! any movement of my torso kills and its just throbbing pain as Im laying here. I took a hot shower and just stood there trying to relax. I cam feel the hard lumps in it and its just so painful. I did have him feed on that side earlier hoping it would go away with less engorgement and him feeding hurt so badly! My fever has given me the chills and Im am dreading his next feed or crying spell.
my friend is sending me a breast pump (thx kathy!) and hopefully when it arrives i can leave some bottles so i cam sleep and go to the gym again (2 essentials for my health).
i feel its crazy to be up while hes sleeping but my chest hurts so bad i dont know if i can even sleep at all.
just having a moment! acknowledging that this is a difficult moment and reminding myself it will pass....but gaaah being a mom is so hard right now!
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