Of course, I miss my parents so much. Especially my mama dearest. I still go to a grief support group (usually weekly) where I am so grateful to talk about her and my process and get a lot of support and comraderie from others on this path. I love to bring in pictures of her and my family. I recently shared these gems. 

Mom walking with Jesse and pregnant with me! (c1978)

Missing Mama

© Claudia Lee

"I awake each morning to start a new day
But the pain of loosing you never goes away.
I go about the things I have to do
And as the hours pass I think again of you.
I want to call you and just hear your voice
Then I remember that I have no choice
For you are not there and now my heart cries
Just to see you again to tell you goodbye
To say Mama I love you and I always will
And hope that much of you, in me you've instilled.
The day that you left I just didn't know
That you were going where I couldn't go.
And now all my memories of you are so dear
But gosh, how I miss you and wish you were here.
Who now can hear me when I need to cry?
It so hard to tell you "Mama goodbye."
Someday I know all will be well
And I'll see you again with stories to tell
Of how you were missed and how we have grown
And how good it is to finally be home.
Until then my memories of you I'll keep near
And I'll pass them on to those who are dear.
I miss you Mama"

Indeed I miss my folks. I feel it's important to include them as well as my grief in the process of my blog and my pregnancy because it is my reality. Yes, I do feel that I have made lots of progress and after 6 and a half years of losing her, I have worked to become strong and move on with my life, but oh how I miss her and long to share every step of my journey with her! There are truly no words for the emotions. I like to think that my angels and Levi are in the same realm now and I know that he will come into being with their love and blessings all around. 

Mom and Dad's wedding (c.1972)